anti-isolation

Trying to keep up with the blog a little better.

Doing well, overall. I need to get myself absorbed in something, though. I have a tendency to get absorbed in relationships, but I think I need to get absorbed in something more 'independent.' Something like a project. Or a community of friends. I'm always looking looking looking for things to get involved in, but I never actually dive into anything, because I never find the perfect thing. But I will likely never find the absolutely perfect thing (just like I might never find the absolutely perfect person), so I need to find something that I can throw myself into for now, or I need to make something happen. Create my own project. I suppose this is what my dissertation is, although I feel very isolated when it comes to this project. But it doesn't have to be that way, does it? I need to be sure I'm sharing my ideas with others who are just as passionate about the topic as I am--I've probably tended not to like conferences because I just haven't cared enough about the topic/field (and I have enjoyed the sessions at conferences that align more with my interests...I think the truth is that I'm just not that interested in philosophy of education as the field currently stands...which perhaps is fitting, since I didn't come here to do phil of ed anyway, I came here to do religion and education, then found that there really wasn't a program in it)--and there is a certain community, I think, that would be interested in my topic (and I'd be interested in theirs).

Whatever projects I do need to involve other people who I like, with whom I share passions. So I need to make this happen.